Hope is the only thing stronger than fear

Well right now I should be doing my Shakespeare extra credit paper buuuuut I really can’t focus. I just have way to much on my mind. The same thing is bugging me that was bugging me yesterday. I don’t know how much longer I can take all of this. I went into work today to drop off a note and the manager just stared me down like he’s just waiting to fire me… I really hope that’s not the case. Well, if it was I’m sure I”d be gone by now. I applied to be a director for this thing called ETP which is what our theater company does every spring after the musical. I really hope I’m offered a position because with me thinking about becoming a theater major, having directing experience would help me out tremendously. I guess I really shouldn’t be worried about it but I am. I worry way to much. Maybe that’s why I’m so glad I found tumblr. The pictures make me smile and calm down and I can vent without anybody saying anything negative or giving me dirty looks. It’s wonderful :) I really shouldn’t complain so much but what’s better than to complain on the internet and not have people judge you? Well, at least that I know of but that’s not important. 5th hour band bugs me quite a bit. They’re not very talented and I don’t want to see the music world slowly go away. 6th hour on the other hand is doing fairly well. I’m excited to see how that concert goes. I’ve been waiting for about an hour or so for Charlie to text me… Nothing. I think I might be ok with that for once, although it worries me at the same time. I just wish he would think about what he says and does. But that’s getting to personal. I guess I should write my Shakespeare thing now, plus I have anatomy to do still… Ugh. Thanks again, tumblr. You’re awesome <3

jenniferann914:

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To my new followers…

To my old followers…

To those who unfollowed me…

To those who looked at my blog and decided not to follow…

To those who will look at my blog after seeing this…

my second time posting this but i got so many new followers

this made me laugh.

Hahahaha!

I hate when one minute things are wonderful between us but then the next minute things are falling apart… Why does this happen? Why do I let my anger get the best of me? It’s 10:23 and I really should best be getting to bed but how can I sleep when I feel like such a terrible person for being mad at basically nothing. I hate when people hide things from me, and you’ve done it quite a few times this past year. You’re slowly ruining our trust and I don’t want to loose that. A relationship between anybody is nothing if you don’t have trust. Tonight was so fun, until I got a text back from you. This is why I hate the internet and texting, it just pisses me off. While I’m on the topic of being pissed off, I really hate the fact that someone has the same anniversary date as I do. Then they try to out-do my boyfriend and I through facebook if we say something to each other on that specific day… It’s rather annoying. I just can’t wait to get out of this place. What I really can’t wait for is to meet new friends. I am so sick of the girls that surround me except for about 3 or 4 of them, and they know who they are. My life is really not that complicated but I definitely feel stressed. I don’t want things to fall apart… Maybe I’m just trying to hard to keep everything pieced together. Maybe I have a hard time letting go of the past… Yeah, I think that’s it. The past. Ok I’m done ranting. It feels good to finally let it all out. Thank you, Tumblr. I love this site. Goodnight Tumblr and anyone else out there. It’s time for bed.

I hate it when your head tells you to just give up

but your heart tells you to just keep going.